Usually I try to be all peppy and happy and cheery, but lately I’ve been feeling like a failure.
My heart and head feel like there’s a great big block of sadness wedged on top of it and it’s preventing me from doing anything right. I feel fat and disgusting and ugly. I feel like everybody hates me and always will. I don’t know how I’ll change is but I have to try and change myself to stop it.
No one cares but me so I have to do something. I don’t think anyone likes the way I am so I should change.
But I don’t want to change who I am, I just want to stop feeling so crappy and like a complete failure.